I put myself to a test during recess to see if I am really keen on my current part-time job, which is suspose to be my passion. I worked one of of the three required days and told my manager that I have something urgent to attend to... and thot this period will be a good break off from work and as well as a good period of time for me to salvage my fyp.. well... at the same time.. i was pretty troubled with the fact that I am going to graduate...why troubled??? I dunno why also... perhaps I have been studying for like close to 20 years and it feels like my usual routine is going to be disturbed... well.. i am not saying that working is going to be something negative... but rather... i think i need time to get adapted to the change... BIG change that is going to happen... soon.. the next phase of life is here...sounds so old isnt it...
ok.. back to talking abt my break from work... after disappearing for close to a week in my comp.. i started to miss the ambient... some of the staff there... i thot this occupation would be a chore for me.. but it isnt true.. cos i felt a sense of achievement after my working day most of the time... the working environment is just great... the gym is just big enough for me to walk and frustrate out the stress from sch.. talking to ppl just relieves me from my congested mind ....and the seniors there are inspirational as well but its a pity that i can converse with them for long due to their busy schedules... well.. another issue that comes across my mind is... is it good to actually get yourself to a higher level of what I am currently studying or being versatile (pursuing 2 different specialization. e.g. for me... i have fitness and microelectronics)... this was a rather problematic issue for me... as my initial thought was to pursue a phD in my faculty... and now it a sudden switch to being "versatile".... after talking to ppl... I realised I am actually in 2 arising industries... and since I am young... its a good opportunity to let me explore into both... and come up with a final answer like let say in a years time? Lesson learnt after all this troubled issues.... NEVER THINK TOO FAR... short term goals are just realistic... long term are hard to achieve when there are so many changes that in happening in life... hope ppl who has read this can reflect abt their lives and start planning...
my valentines' day was almost being spent on work... but luckily the client whom i was suspose to attend to change the appt to another day.. well... by v day i was relatively shag... after a whole weekend ( + monday) of intensive drilling of sports rehabilation course... the course was really an eye opener for me... besides being trained as a sports physio.. I also managed to did quite a no. of networking... and the greatest thing is.. i am able to apply the skills i have learnt to my clients...
oh yes.. talking abt today... i was still tired due to the accumulated insufficient sleep... went for my orthodontics treatment.. took so long for me to get to see the dentist .. but was so happy.. cos while waiting i saw my fav dentist.. hee.. but didnt really bother to greet him though.. too tired and i was afraid i might blabber nonsense..
since i spent all my time on waiting.. ended up.. i had to take a cab to work... first time ever i met such a ku ku driver... he was suspose to wait for the "on call" passenger.. and he still agreed to take me to my work place.. and went he saw the passenger was there... he asked me to get out of the cab and i had to re-queue for the cab?!?!?!?! He is considered lucky that i was too lazy to take down his cab no... if not... he's sure gonna get it...
sigh.. the worst part happens in evening.. where i was badly thrashed by one of my colleagues.. known as my pig...being such a spoilt brat.. i wasnt able to take harsh comments on him... i mean i have to admit to the fact that i was rather loud when i claimed that i did not say the things that he was commenting on to the client.. but cant he just be a little patient?? i felt so terrible during that moment... tears are almost coming out... fortunately i managed to control .. trying to cool down as much as i can.... and i am so glad to have my daddy (a colleague) to comfort me... though things appeared to be pretty bad initially.. but it ended up with apologies and hugs... my pig also mentioned to help me with certain plannings for my monthly updates for the company... and i love daddy's encouragement and support....how sweet of them rite.....
hmm... just wondering... is there any company that doesnt have any political issues involvement... be it between staff... company and staff... etc etc... after working in my IA comp and my current comp.. makes me realised that one should say too much things when he or she is totally new to the comp...... well.. i am not trying to say that i am dissatisfied with the things which are happening in my current comp... I like my current job as a trainer.. however.... I understand why do ppl just like to put their fake "selves" when conversing with one another... why arent they treating ppl equally? I dun mean to offend them... but I seriously find it damn bloody CHILDISH for adults to think of things that way... why are ppl so narrow-minded? It seem as if they had never been exposed anywhere outside the work place.. sigh... shame on them... in a way... i pity them at the same time... Sometimes I just feel so fortunate that i am getting a degree and as well as equipped with other skills to leave me with several options in life...
For now, I hope those ppl whom i have faith and trust in ... are truly the ones whom i can crap, joke, consult to... in another words... they are inspiring enough and does not put a false front at all... these are the things i would wish to observe in them and that will definitely motivates me to work harder for this job.. I really and truly appreciate those whom have tried or even did things to help me in one way or another... trying hard to help me promote... and always motivating me... and for those who put up a false front and narrow-minded... serve u right for being such an a**hole.. go ahead and think bad of me or makes toopid comments abt me... I know God will have a way of dealing with such ppl....
wahz... finally... the period of rest is here! yeah.. cny shall be a great period for me to rest.... do fyp report... and slack... muahaha... but i think i am gonna screw up my plans again... lets hope i have the discipline ar...
Hmmp... this week was rather interesting..went to watch IVP basketball semis as well as finals... so proud of this year's team!! they got into the finals... but KNS... we ended up getting second by losing 1 point to nyp.. its has been 4 years in a roll le... damn... nvm.. next year the title shall be ours.. ha.. last nite went to jalan with hong yee in town.. a coursemate of mine.. ha... just ask her out as another fren flew kite.....we went to watch memoirs of geishan... a very meaningful show... eh.. not becos of the sexual scenes k... but the beautiful women and storyline.. argh... michelle yeoh and gong li though old.. but they are still so chio! omg... went out with choon, lala and cy this afternoon... ha... the funniest part for the day... taking neoprints.. ha... doing 8 different style of postures... just to duplicate enough prints for the four of us...
so... there comes cny in another 5 hours... and the usual cny schedule shall hold... going to granny's house and stone for a few hours.. argh... how i wish there is something entertaining for me to do there rather than eating junk food?! think its time to do some hiding from new year by going far far away...
Ok... shall end my blog and proceed for dinner.. happy cny!!
Havent been logging on to my blog.. and realise my tagboard is gone again... argh.. gotta set up another one.. damn annoying..>:(
Well... time to conclude yr 2005 for myself... the first half of the yr was pretty bad as I was with a broken ankle... and at the same time went through 2 IVPs... so can imagine the chronic pain i have been experiencing for during last month's rainy weather.. the beginning till the middle part of the 2nd half of 2005 wasnt great also... cos fyp is giving me a terrible headache... even till now.. no progress ever since the project started... and with my unsatisfactory results for yr 4 1st sem.... i had already accept the fact that i am just a 2nd lower class le.. well.. its ok.. i shall treat it as a blessing in disguise... cos firstly i managed to get a job as a trainer...an occupation which i desired.. Oh ya... thailand trip with my b ball mates were great too... though we ended up quite broke when we came back...but it was fun! and tiring as well.. keke... And lastly yr 2005 concludes with a 20 mins worth of beautiful fireworks... it was a pretty memorable one.. cos my aunt, my mum and I "sprinted" up 6 storeys of stairs to a multi-storey carpark just to get to watch the fireworks.. ha
SO.. resolution for year 2006? I would like to enrich myself as much as possible...and hopefully i can get into the Biomedical engineering masters program... if not.. working in a semiconductor company is not too bad also... not forgetting taking driving and my fitness courses.. erm.. hopefully I have the time and ability to do most of the things.. ha...
In the beginning of 2006... i was feeling a little bored... and perhaps.. a little short of money.. so i was so OnZ by taking 2 primary sch kids plus my trainer job... omg... i realise i can juggle so many of them.. as i am neglecting lotsa sch work.. so most likely will be dropping one of the kids before CNY comes.....
Today.. i went to my workplace to get evaluated by my manager... and guess wat.. he says i look too young to be a trainer... hmmp.. do i really look so young... and even if i look young.. does it mean that ppl will not have confidence in my training? So am I to be blame for looking young? damn... sux la.. like my aunt say... perhaps he has nothing better to comment on.. so he said that... anyways i am not exactly bothered by wat he said too... i hope he is not finding a bloody excuse to put me off the job... nvm.. its ok... Nothing will stop me from acheiving my goal in life... F*** those ppl who judge a book by its cover.. ha~~ I was telling my mum.. maybe i should perm my hair like hers to look older..keke
ha.. as usual I spend my Xmas at home... with some relatives coming to house for a visit... dun really have time to entertain them though.. cos i am trying hard to do some fyp readup before going for my hols.. then at nite... my family and i had a mini steamboat feast..muahaha.. *drOOL*... today's boxing day.... no gifts for me to open... so went to the gym to do some boxing instead.. ha... no la.. just went there for a workout... to burn watever fat that have been accumulating in me during the festive seasons....in the afternoon.. my aunt suggested bringing granny out to carrefour for her fav fruit shopping trip... yes.. its suntec.. the place i have to go at least 3 times a week... *pengZ*....then happen to meet a client of mine.. she was on her way to working out.. so glad that she recognised me... and also.. she did not siam me.. ha... we conversed a little... then greeted each other with those usual season greetings la.. its feels so great to have ppl appreciating your presence... i just love my job.. hope i can stay long with it...
Now I can understand how tired are the legs of a marathon runner.... though i am just walking ard non stop for almost 3 days.... but the sleep after that is good... keke...
Finally i start to feel contented about my life.. great things are happening ard me.. where i go through each and everyday without complaining abt how life sux and etc... though my results for this sem is not as good... well... i will definitely not make it to my 2nd upper le... so there goes my post grad education... but that's not exactly a bad thing also.. cos i have other plans ahead! its great to have plans for the future.. as you plan.. the more excited you get... isn't this feeling cool?? keke...
I love my current job... to be exact ... i maybe taking up 2 part time jobs when sch reopens.. ha.. sounds as if i am tiring myself out rite? actually not really.. cos the time slots which i am committing to it doesnt seem to affect my studies.. and i made a promise that i will not neglect my studies for the sake of money..
anyways my dental visit for this month is damn terrible.. can you imagine the orthodontist putting up as many as 4 springs to create gaps between my teeth? argh... the pain is really unbearable... have been taking pain killers for several days.. and my diet has been porridge for brunch... porridge for dinner too! *sadZ*... hope this period of suffering is worth while man... i know it will.... haha....
Wat's for Xmas??? hmm.. heard from my aunt that my little niece is coming to our house... and we will be having steamboat.. muahaha.. my poor bro in aussie must be drooling... then there's a very strawberry Xmas cake too... woOOo.. time to grow fat!
